Relationships are hard. I get that. I mean, people want that spark to last forever. Hell, I write about it as if that spark will last forever. But the reality is, it doesn’t always happen. But the dream is still there, right? To fall in love and STAY in love with someone.

When googling hopeless romantic, one of the first results was from Urban Dictionary: “Hopeless Romantics are NOT Hopeless per-say, but very true, caring, and loving people. They are “NOT MADE FOR TODAYS STANDARDS”, sadly. They believe in passion, chivalry, and true love. They have loved sincerely at one point in their life, discovered what love feels like, and can’t understand why it was not returned in the same form. Hopeless Romantics are usually dreamers, idealists, and sincere, however what they expect in any relationship is a full return for their effort and caring, to be loved as much as they loved. What makes them “Hopeless” is the fact that they are few and far between in todays daily life, and usually get let down in the long run, even though they gave all they had to give, money, love, time, housing, belongings. Hopeless Romantics give 100% ALL the time, and hope for the same in return.”

Recently some people close to me have been going through some hard times, relationship wise, and I sympathize with them. I’ve never been married, but I can’t imagine coming home one day and your significant other telling you “Hey, so I know we’ve been married for a while, but this isn’t working out.” And I think that makes it worse, because as far as you know, they’re just being honest. They didn’t cheat, they supposedly just don’t love you like they once did. It’s heartbreaking.

I don’t understand it. I don’t know if I ever will and to be honest, I don’t know if I ever want to.

Everyone once in a while, I wonder if something’s wrong with me. I wonder why I’ve gone so long without another serious relationship. Am I that picky? Do I just set certain standards that I look for too high? I don’t know, maybe that’s it. But I don’t want to meet someone and have the feeling of “You know, they’re kind of cool. I mean, they’re attractive and all, so…yeah. Why not? Let’s give it a shot.” I know most people don’t fall in love that way, let alone get married, but sometimes I feel like maybe I should have that attitude. Maybe I should just say “You know, why not? They’re single. I’m single. So why not?”

But I can’t do it.

I don’t want that. And that’s one of the many reasons why I know I’m a hopeless romantic (not to mention I check marked almost everyone one of these “15 Problems Only Hopeless Romantics Understands” list. 10 and 13 Especially.) But I am. I’m a hopeless romantic and I won’t apologize for that. And I won’t settle. I don’t know what that means for my future, relationship wise, but it is what is is. I’m eternally hopeless…

 

I’m a huge fan of The Office, so here’s one of my all-time favorite scenes. Both as an Office fan and a hopeless romantic…